So.

Sometimes I wish I wasn't so mature. I miss going out and having so much fun! I used to be a party animal and I don't necessarily miss that, but I do miss going out with my friends. I actually used to get invited to things and would go out. Now, I'm bored on the weekends. Andrew tries to entertain me, but I can tell he's bored too. I just don't know what to do anymore. I only have like 2 friends here and both of them have their own "party agendas" that I'm never invited to or know about. It does suck, I'm not going to lie. But it also sucks trying to find a babysitter so I'd rather have people come over here. But then I feel like it's boring over here. waaah :(

On another note, I've also run in to a fashion crisis. I have NO clothes. Well, obviously I have clothes, but not many. I used to know exactly how to dress, I looked cute everyday. I was never caught dead with my hair pulled back in a messy bun or in sweats, and now that's turned in to my wardrobe. I wear yoga/sweat pants, a t, a hoodie, and moccasins everyday. And my hair is alwaaays in a pony with a headband. Seriously. And I rarely wear make up. what to do? I don't have money to go buy some new clothes, so I have to make due with what I have. 2 pairs of skinnys and a bootcut flare jean, 1-2 dresses/tunics, a couple of tanks, 3 cardigans, maybe a couple of v necks. and a loooot of t shirts. For shoes, I have a pair of really cool/cute nike high tops, black bootie moccasins, black ugg bearpaw boots, black sequin sperrys, and um maybe like some random clogs. Help me out?! How do you guys dress? Maybe send me some ideas if you have any, I'd love any help! I want to feel pretty again!

Oh, one more thing. I got in a freakin' car accident on Wednesday and my car might be totalled!! seriously? it sucks, but I get a rental car tomorrow. Here's to hoping I can afford it!! Everyone have a great night/week.
Muah xo.

I hope people actually read this...

...I feel like I have a story to tell. Of struggles, succeeding, fighting, late nights, high school, college, work, etc. I feel like, hey, my story is actually worthwhile to tell kids about, hoping that they don't get in the situation I've put myself in.
I'm not famous and my life isn't broadcasted to all the world to see like the lovely ladies of Teen Mom and Teen Mom 2, but I feel like I may be able to help in some way. Maybe not right away, but I hope that in my career, I can help those that want to hear. :)

xo babes, good night.

y'all..

I've been reading through my old posts and it's CRAZY to see how much I've been through in the last couple of years. It's been SO tough but I'm definitely blessed with an amazing family and friends as well! I am so blessed to have my son, with a roof over our heads, clothes to wear, and food (sometimes only a little) to eat.
I'm stressed to the max with bills that need to be paid ASAP! It's very stressful but I'm trying to keep a level head and I'm working my ass off! There's nothing much else I can really do! Please pray for us, that would be amazing!

xo!

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I never post here, but most of the time I think it's pointless. My life is like a full rotation: good, great, bad, worse, weird, and then back to good. It's all the same and right now it's "good". So yeah, that's my "updates" there!

Vent:: I've been trying to get food stamps and Medicaid for Cole and it's a hell ride. seriously. I've applied 3 times since August and WOW still nothing. They'll send me a letter saying what they need from me, the deadline, then I'll send it BEFORE the deadline, and then they send me a letter a couple weeks later saying they need MORE and don't understand my pay stubs, and A DAY later, they send me a letter saying my app was DENIED because I didn't give them the necessary paperwork. GRRRRR SO MAD!!!


Anyway, we're super strapped for money and I'm just getting irritated about it. I hate being in this situation especially because I want my baby boy to have everything and anything and it makes me sad I can't give him that :( wah.

Well, I'm going to go, I have a lot of homework to do, and I'm tired.
Night! xo

Wish...

I have a lot of wishes for this life time:
I wish I had more time to fulfill all of my dreams (school, career, vacations)
I wish I had more money to fulfill said dreams.
I wish I could just get married and it would work.
I wish that I was always strong enough to deal with my life.
I wish I could lose weight and inches in my problem areas.
I wish I could give Cole everything and more than what I had...

Isn't that just such a waste of time? I wish all these things and even new things each day, but what does it even do?
My two wishes for today are: I wish I wrote more on here and I wish more people read and gave me feedback.
I love blogging, I love writing, and I love it when people can connect to what I'm talking about. It's amazing to know that there are other people that feel the same way I do.

What do you all think I should write about more often? What are you more interested to see?

It's been a while.

Nothing's really been going on. I've just been enjoying my last days here at my moms house. I'm sad to go, I really don't want to leave my sister or my mom. And I'm not too excited to start school again. It's all so bittersweet!
Cole's getting so big, it's crazy! I love how I can see him learning new things. I love my little man.
Anyway, I'll probably post in the next couple of days and update on the move and starting school!

Umm

I don't think I posted, but if I did, disregard this announcement...
My Cole is a year old! His birthday was on Sunday. Didn't go as planned, he was constipated all weekend and just didn't feel good. His party is this coming weekend though, so hopefully he feels better after that.

I'm moving back for college in about a week. I'm so NOT excited. I've gotten so used to my moms again that I'm not excited for responsibility. UGH!

Well, those are my boring updates, I'll update again after Cole's party!

Xo
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