Monday, August 23, 2010


GRR. Andrew, Cole, & I all have a cold. Andrew's seems to be going away, but mine and Cole's seems pretty bad. :( Mostly just really stuffy noses. My throat hurts, I hope Cole's doesn't! I feel bad for my poor bebe :(

Anyway, besides that, I feel that Andrew and I have had some problems lately. I can feel myself being mean to him almost but I kind of figured out whyyy...
I feel that he doesn't help enough with the baby. I find myself doing EVERYTHING for Cole, not that I mind, but I would like to see Andrew connecting with his son more. I just don't think it's hit him very well that he's a father, Cole is as much his responsibility as it is mine. I don't know. I talked to him last night about it and I hope things change a bit, because I don't want to be bitter towards him because of something that can be changed with just a little bit of work.

Anyway, how are all the other teen moms doing today? Let me know what you & your babies are doing today! :)

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Oh wow.

Well, I'm here to update you guys on my life!
-As a mom, its going great, I'm loviiiing taking care of Cole. Its the best and most rewarding thing in the world when I see him happy and joyful. I mean it really makes my heart sing! :) That sounds so cheeeesy, but really. It's true ;) I LOVE HIMS!
-As a girlfriend, it's still a daily struggle between Andrew and I. It's not only his fault, or only my fault, but we're both at fault. Relationships are hard when it's just the two people, but it becomes even harder when there's a third person thrown in to the mix. (The third person is obviously my son, not another "lover" or whatever haha). I know for sure my fault is that it's different with Andrew because I want to focus all my attention and love towards Cole, but that's not fair to Andrew. Although he's not perfect, I should definitely appreciate him for atleast this: Without him, I wouldn't have my beautiful son. I couldn't of done it alone, either! Or maybe I could, but I'm much happier on this journey with him. And although I say that to him, I need to SHOW that to him. His fault, I think, is that I feel that I don't get ENOUGH help, or he doesn't pay ENOUGH attention to Cole. Maybe that's just me as Cole's mom and how much I LOVE and ADORE Cole, but I don't know. We both just have things to work on..
-As a daughter, I don't think I've been doing enough. I had a talk with my mom tonight and she told me MANY feelings I had no idea that she felt. I love and appreciate my mom to no end, but some of the things I do, or DON'T do in this case, really get to her. And even though we've had a talk similar to this in the past, I think I understand her more now that I'm a mom. I love her though, to no end. She's my rock and she has always been my role model. I really want to do something for her, maybe get her a gift or something once I start working again...HELP? Message or comment me any ideas on FB.

Well, I start work on the 29th of this month, and I'm excited but NOT excited! I want the money SO bad, because I want to start buying a couple things for our apartment and also I would like to be actually able to GET our apartment, ha. But anyway, that's all I have for tonight...

Sunday, August 15, 2010

To all the mamas!

Baby in the bath tub <3
I'm starting him on a bedtime routine that maybe will stick so we can ALL get enough sleep. It's still kind of hard for me to go to bed early, because I'm a night owl, so maybe that's where Cole gets it! I don't know, I've had trouble getting him to sleep more than an hour or 2 at a time at night. Where as during the day, he can sleep up to 3 or 4 hours. Urgh, baby, baby, baby...

Anyway, In this blog I wanted to say how HARD motherhood is. I LOVE it, don't get me wrong, but I NEVER knew it would be like this. I'm awake more than half of the day and most of it is spent at the worst hours of the night/early morning.. wow.
Buuut, I'd just like to give props to all the mamas.. young or old! <3
Well, Cole just woke up, whyy, idk, to hang out with mama i guess...ha. GOODNIGHT!*

Wednesday, August 11, 2010


Wow, it's been awhile! Being a mom is HARD work and there's almost NO time for myself. It's not exactly a bad thing, because being a mom has made me becom selfless. I'm all about my baby now!
It's amazing! Mommyhood is not exactly what I thought it would be. My sleeping pattern is WACK, my boobs are SORE, and my body is super weird. I love being a mom, though. Of course I wish I would've waited until I was older and what not, but I think I would've still been as tired, stressed, and sore as I am now.
So as of now, I will be going back to work in about 3 weeks! I'm excited because then the MOOOLA will be flowing in like before. :) I can't wait to be making that money again! I want to spoil myself and Cole! :D

On the other hand mommyhood has definitely brought some obstacles for Andrew & I. We just CAN'T seem to get along. I think the fact that we have Cole now, has put a wedge between us. I definitely focus on Cole A LOT more than Andrew. I mean, why wouldn't I? Cole actually needs me to take care of him. Maybe I'm just pushing Andrew away a little too much without even trying to.. :/ any advice to help us be better together with Cole? Thanks! goodnight*