Friday, July 30, 2010

I love being a mom :D

It's amazing! Before I had Cole, I knew I'd love being a mom, but I never knew I'd love it THIS much.
Seriously, everything about it is amazing. Feeding him, changing his diapers, getting spit up on, watching him sleep, etc. It's my favorite thing to do. I wouldn't mind being a stay-at-home mom. But then again, I really like to make money & provide. I'm a very independent woman and I hate not being able to get Cole the things I think he deserves.

Anyway, postpartum pregnancy kind of sucks. I hate having the pain from my incision. It's getting better but I still have to take pain meds because its really hard for me to get in and out of bed, mostly. The part I REALLY hate about not being pregnant, is that I have this like saggy belly thing. It's gross. I really hope it goes away, because I would love to be tiny again :) <3 ha. Well anyway, I'm going to go get my little one from Gma's room, because I miss him & I hate being away from him <3
Goodnight all*

Wednesday, July 28, 2010


7 LBS 8 OZ 20 IN
JULY 24, 2010

My labor story:
I went to my dr's appt on Friday at 11:30 AM. When I got there, she checked me and said I was 5 cm dialated and asked if I had been feeling any contractions. I told her that from what I could tell, I wasn't. I felt some cramp type things, but they weren't that strong. She got a little worried and sent me to the hospital to be put on a monitor to see if I was indeed having contractions. Well, I was, but they weren't that strong, but the hospital decided to admit me because I was 5 cm dialated. I was admitted at around 1:45 PM.
I sat in my hospital room and waited...and waited...and walked...and waited...
At around 8 PM, my dr came in and broke my water to speed up the labor. I started really feeling the contractions, and I decided I would get pain meds. WOW. They gave me nubain (sp?) in my IV & it made me feel sooo dizzy and out of it. It didn't really help the pain, it just made me feel worse in general. After feeling some pretty bad contractions, I decided to get an epidural. After that, i was super relaxed and ready to have my baby! Still, nothing happened.
Finally at around 5:30 in the morning, I was fully dialated, and they wanted me to push. I pushed and pushed and pushed and nothing except Cole was getting a really bad cone head. So finally at around 9:30 ish, they said I needed to have a C-section because Cole & I were under too much stress. I cried & cried, because I did not want to have major surgery. I went in to the operating room, shaking and bawling, and scared out of my mind, but I just kept thinking that in about 20 min, I would get to meet my son. Andrew was the only one that came in with me, since I could only have one person come in with me anyway. I'm glad it was him. He was very supportive and made sure I remembered who I was doing this for. Cole was born at 10:41 AM as a C-section baby. He was beautiful from the 1st second I saw him. :)
We are doing AMAZING. He's a little bit of a crybaby, because he loves to be with mommy & daddy. But otherwise, he's wonderful at breastfeeding :) I LOVE being a mommy!


Thursday, July 22, 2010



^ That's my son in there! It's so weird to know that in 3 weeks (give or take) I'll be holding a baby, not my belly! It's kind of scary too, because somedays I'm thinking that I won't be able to do this. I have support coming from everywhere, but I want to be able to do it on my own! I know that's kind of hard considering I'm a teen who's planning on going to college & working & living on her own & taking care of a baby. But I'll do it..somehow.

anyway, I'm very unpatiently waiting for my bebe to get here. I can't wait..or maybe I can, but I'm just sick of being pregnant! REALLY! It's horrible in the last month. Anyway, I hope that everyone is having a good night, I'm going to go rest. :)

Tuesday, July 20, 2010


I hate playing this waiting game. Technically, my 40 weeks aren't up yet, but my doctor said I was already 4 cm dialated & its realllly getting me excited. I haven't had regular contractions yet, so I'm frustrated. I just want my baby here in my arms! I can't wait to be a mom & show all those people that think I CAN'T do it, that I CAN! :)

Anyway, did anyone watch Baby High?! I thought it was an amazing show. I wish I could've gone to a school like that when I was pregnant. Luckily I didn't have my child in the middle of the school year, which makes things a liiiittle easier. Anyway, it seems that the teachers & principals really care about their students & aren't going to be giving up on them. There is some controversy about schools like that, though, because people say it condones teen pregnancy. What do you guys think?
I personally think its an amazing oppurtunity for young woman to keep going on with their lives, even with a child. I'm sure its hard to raise your own child while you're still trying to figure out your own life. I think its a great school & all of the teachers seem to be very supportive. Teen pregnancy has alwaaaays been around & will continue to be around & this school is just making a teen mom's chance of graduating and going on to college greater. What's wrong with that? NOTHING! :)

Last thing. I'm getting really, really scared. I can't wait to have Cole in my arms, but I'm scared of the process of getting him there. I have to be on some antibiotics during labor for Cole's safety & I'm scared I won't get to the hospital on time for those, or for an epidural if I decide to get one! Its kind of a scary thought to not make it to the hospital in time. Is this fear normal? :/
Oh well, have a great day everyone!*

Friday, July 16, 2010

4 cm.


I haven't really talked about the "discomforts" of being pregnant at all during my blog, so I'm going to dedicate this entry to just that..and some surprise news at the end!

*My first trimester: I felt TIRED, like mentally and physically. I couldn't keep my eyes open, even before I knew I was pregnant, I was ALWAYS tired.
I also felt naseous a lot. I never actually got "morning sickness" (luckily), but I did feel sick A LOT. I think the worst about the 1st trimester was the tiredness (is that a word?).
*My second trimester: still tired but it was the kind of tired that's from like actually doing something, or maybe gaining weight, but I gained more energy than from my 1st trimester. My feet started to hurt more, and I really started to pop out around 5 months. There weren't too many discomforts around my 2nd trimester, it was just amazing seeing my body change!
*My third trimester: Although technically I haven't finished my third trimester, there are many discomforts. At first it was just carrying a bunch of extra weight, and then my feet started hurting and occasionally my feet would swell up. And then it turned out to be that I'm getting really sore "down there" and now I'm just super uncomfortable. I can't sleep when I want to and if I need to be up and awake, it doesn't happen!

ANYWAY: GOOD NEWS, exciting news, blah blah blah, I'm already 4 cm dialated and my doctor says Cole is very low. AH :) He can be coming at any time! :)


Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Soul mate?


I think its so weird that I'm so young, yet I feel that the person I fall asleep to every night & wake up to every morning is the man I'm meant to be with. He's my best friend, truly! He's always there, and even though sometimes he would rather be out with his friends, I can understand him. Because even the best of friends need a little break.

I love him like WHOA. I guess I didn't even think he was my "soul mate" until Cole brought us closer, I hope Cole keeps helping us along when he's born too, but I think he will because I can see how much Andrew LOVESSSS Cole already. I love it when he leaves the house & kisses my belly & says "I love you Cole" Its so weird to see someone do such a 360 degree change to their life. Andrew used to be someone I could probably see myself with only to party & "hook-up" with ha. but now he's the LOVE of my life & nothings going to change that. He's the ooonly man I want to be with for the rest of my life :) and I can't wait for Cole to get here to complete our family. I love my life & those in it :)

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Got me like Oh my gosh, I'm so in love.


Andrew got qualified at work! That means that he's doing his job really well and he's no longer viewed as a "new worker". This also means he gets a raise! I'm really proud of him cause usually it takes 6-8 weeks for people to get qualified and he did it in 4. :) I'm like that proud, bragging wife, ha.
The only thing that worries me about this is that he's not going to want to leave swift. Which is ok because its a money making job that is good for Cole & I, but it's in Grand Island. & I'm going to college in Lincoln in the spring. Soo, how's that supposed to work out? I'm scared that I'll have to go to Lincoln alone with Cole for a while, until we figure something out, because college isn't going to wait for me. I would just go to CCC or take some online classes, but I have a full ride to UNL, why wouldn't I take advantage of that? I can't let having a baby stop me from succeeding in life. Any advice PLEASE?! I will take it. go to my facebook or my formspring, that would be AH MAZING! thanks :)

Friday, July 9, 2010

Life is good..

Hopefully it continues to stay that way. I'm getting very anxious for Cole to get here. Its a month *give or take* and I can't wait any longer. Not only am I super uncomfortable in my body, but I want to meet my baby boy!<3

Here is a list of things that Andrew & I need to work on & buy before Cole gets here:

1. we need to SAVE our $$$. mostly he needs to work on this. he makes almost 400$ every week & its gone in the same week. & none of its for the baby :/ that's redic.
2. our relationship. we need to make sure we're good before Cole comes, because we're going to need to be a TEAM when baby is here cuz i'm NOT going to do it alone. I refuse.
3. We need to start looking @ apartments in lincoln in late august, early september so we can get a deposit in atleast.
4. baby things we need: *pack n play, swing, CARSEAT & STROLLER, & bathtub. otherwise I think we're good.

Ugh, I hope we can get the carseat & stroller ASAP because uh, I'm due SOON. & I need to have that carseat. that's an actual necessity. :/ we'll see. maybe my mom will order it for me tmr. I'll just pay her back slowly. ugh.

Anyway, in the next week, I want to have a garage SALE. hopefully make some money that way :)

well, goodnight then. <3

Monday, July 5, 2010

Happy 4th!


Hope everyone had a good and SAFE 4th of July. Mine was great :)
Today was my lil cousin's birthday and we had a bbq for lunch. She just turned 2 and she's SO cute! Plus the food was super good. Then I came home and just lounged around in the A/C! You know how prego women get ;) ha. Then Andrew and I went to his mom's boyfriend's dad's house (lol) and ate some more food. Then we went and got some sno cones and fireworks and lit them all night PLUS some free HUGE fireworks we got from the neighbors. How sweet, right?! I was excited. And now I'm back at home in the A/C again just waiting for Andrew to get back home so we can cuddle..or "curdle" as he likes to say, and watch a movie and pig out :) I'm so hungry! And Cole is too, because he's kicking me real hard right now. <3
K, well hope everyone enjoys the rest of the night, as I will, muah!*

Friday, July 2, 2010


There's a lot of things to be happy about today:

  • Andrew gets to keep his job at JBS! he's missed a couple of days this week because he got sick and then got Pink Eye. :( we were both super scared that he'd get fired because of those days missed, but luckily, he's fine and texted me not that long ago to tell me that he gets to stay!
  • The baby shower was yesterday and we got a lot of stuff! I'm super happy!
  • I don't work today so I get to spend time with my sisters that are here from Indiana. Sadly, they leave tomorrow morning so I really want to make the best of it.
I had my doctor's appt today and it went well. I'm super happy that Cole will be here in about 6 weeks. That's crazy to me! I'm happy to hopefully get my body back! It will be weird being small again and what not, but I'm happy for that.

Another thing I'm excited for is re-applying for UNL. I wish I could be going to college with everyone in August, but I have my own happy ending to why I won't be, right? :) I just can't wait to join everyone else. It will just be hard to be a full time student, a mom, and devoted girlfriend. We'll be paying our own bills such as rent, utilities, phone, cable, groceries, baby stuff, blah, blah, blah! I hope we can do it all!

Anyway, I'll update more later, when I have more to update :p bye*

Thursday, July 1, 2010


It's been awhile since my last update. My internet has been acting up lately, so I haven't really been trying to mess with it. My nerves are on ends lately and I don't need the extra stress of trying to fix something I don't really know how to anyway.
I've been thinking a lot about being a mommy and how excited I am for Cole to get here. It's going to be the toughest thing of my LIFE, but I think I'm as ready as can be for it!
ANYWAY! New stuff:
I'm on my 34th week of pregnancy. (WOW)
I've been babysitting Grey a lot lately.
That's the most exciting thing on my mind, ha. I want to be selfish for a day. This celebration is about me and my bebe and I can't wait to see what everyone got for Cole & I. YAY!

Another exciting thing is that Teen Mom 2 starts on July 20 10pm ET. SO excited. Love all those shows and can't wait to see what the girls have been up to!
I think I'm going to hit the hay, I've got a long day ahead of me! Muah*