Saturday, June 19, 2010

Emotional times

Well, Andrew's dad finally knows. I don't know what he thinks of me personally, but I hope he doesn't think too shitty of me. I'd like him to like me, of course, I mean he's practically family to me, although it doesn't really seem like that.
Ugh, tonight has seemed so emotional. Andrew and his temper got to me tonight. He's definitely got one, but I guess I'm used to it. I know he doesn't mean it when he starts to get super mad, unless I've really truly done something. Which, I don't usually do anything, ha. Oh well, I feel that things will get better as soon as everyone meets Cole. I think he'll bring everyone together & hopefully everyone will accept him. Cause if they don't, its their loss. My son will be the most wonderful person I've ever met :)

Well, the last thing I have to update on is that Cole is a hyper little boy! Holy cow. He doesn't stop moving it seems like. And he REALLY moves. it's crazy. I love it but after a little while it's like "Ok Cole, pleaaase, you're hurting mommy" lol. Well, I'm going to bed..goodnight!*

Saturday, June 12, 2010


So, I have this formspring, because I just thought it would be fun, but some of the questions are not so nice. :( i'm really sick of people doubting me about being pregnant and being able to raise a child. Well, who are you to judge me?! I'm doing THE BEST I can to start to make a good life for my baby. So fuck you all who doubt me...thanks. :)

Anyway, my main intent of getting on here was to talk about how great Andrew and I are doing lately! He's done a whole 360 change. Everyone who matters sees it like my family, his mom, and most importantly, moi :)
He's been treating me like I'm his world and not only that, he's doing really hard work to make money for the baby and I. I hate dropping him off work because I want to spend time with him, but it's what we gotta do before Cole gets here! I have about 9 weeks left until he's here and I'm so excited. CAN'T WAIT!


Wednesday, June 9, 2010

This is an early post...

...and that's because I dropped Andrew off at work today at about 6 AM, and now I can't sleep. I'm not 100% sure why, but I think it's because I'm not used to him having a responsibility and a job to go to. I'm used to him being with me pretty much any time we want to be together, because honestly I don't work too much right now. Aw, it was so cute. Before Andrew got out of my car to go to work this morning, he kissed me & then he kissed my belly <3. I can tell Andrew will be a good dad, and him getting this job and hopefully sticking with it is really showing that he's willing to sacrafice his freedom (a lot of it) to take care of Cole & I.
But really, I feel like I'm really growing up because I woke up with him this morning, made him coffee and eggs and packed his lunch. Ahhh. It's like the reality of being a mom and some what of a wife is hitting me. Obviously Andrew and I aren't married but I'd love to marry him someday...possibly soon? :) Anyway, even if we don't think about marriage for a while, him & Cole are my life. We're our own family now. It's so weird to think that in just a couple of months, Andrew and I will have our own family to take care of. It's kind of scary, though. I hope Andrew & I will be good enough parents to Cole. The way Andrew's been acting lately, though, doesn't make me doubt what kind of parent he will be & I know I will try my hardest as well. Of course we won't be perfect because this is our first child, but we'll learn along the way :).

Well, I guess I'm going to go pop in a movie or just watch music videos and wait until a little later to go to the grocery store. have a good day everyone!*

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Everything's just wonderful...

Everything seems to be going perfect with Andrew and I and our life...

ANDREW HAS A JOB INTERVIEW ON MONDAY! :D I'M SOOO EXCITED FOR HIM. I really hope he gets the job. The money would help soo much! ahh.

The sad thing is, we were planning on going to Texas on Wednesday and now we can't because if he DOES get the job (which I pray he does) he will start working right away. ugggh. Oh well, hopefully, somehow I can go!

Anyway, going to go watch tv with my babe! <3 night everyone.

PS. my weight gain is really healthy, i've only gained 2 lbs since 2 weeks ago. perfect :) bye!

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

I'm so happy :)

Everything just seems so perfect lately. Andrew and I are AMAZING, my family & I are AWESOME, and now I just can't wait until Cole Alexander Bowling is brought in to this world. Its the most exciting thing of my life. I'm so happy that I ultimately made the choice to keep Cole in my life. He's the best thing that's about to happen to me. It's crazy. Only about 2 months left, and I just want to get it over with. I've heard the first month is hell, but I'm so excited to be a mom. :) Ahh, I can't get over it!

The only thing that is putting a stress on any aspect of my life right now is MONEY. That's honestly the ONLY thing I'm worried about. I still have so many things to buy & bills to pay and almost NO WAY to get any of it. I can barely pay my TWO bills I have every month, how am I going to buy all of the rest of the baby stuff or even manage to keep up when baby is actually HERE. :( I hate thinking about it. Buuut anyway, I'll think about that later!

Anyway, I'm going to go and watch The Hills. Have a good night everyone <3!